This program is way more than I was expecting…
I start at 8 am and most days work until 5pm, although I have already done 630 pm twice. My wife looks at me sometimes and asks,” are you sure you want to be doing this”?
“I do, like when I married you, I do”. She says, “you will barely have 13 days before school starts again. Why are you banging your head against the wall like this”?
Truthfully, I want to say you are right, I should stop and hang out with my son and build Lego toy sets with him or make glitter bombs with my daughter but something inside me compels my actions. It is inexplicable, something has gripped me, nanotech has planted a seed in me and the soil is rich…I have a strangely good feeling about this experience, an intuition for something more than has been delivered and promised.
Next week my mentor is paying for me to attend the local AAWA meeting for the Southwest. What is on the agenda? The conference is nothing less than the next 50 years of water needs and water rights acquisitions for the Southwest and how the water will be provided or supplied.
” Why do I bang my head against the wall babe?, because it will feel so good when I stop”… thanks for indulging me guys!!!
I understand completely! It is very addictive research and I am hooked. I go home and study and have bought a research lab notebook. I know summer break is down to 7 days for me but I love the research I am doing; my thoughts are running with ideas. Great blog!
I get the hyper-focus part of the research. I really enjoy pushing myself intellectually, but I have learned to constantly look for the balance. I think, for me, it mainly comes down to patience. As in, be patient and keep working during the official time and trust that things will get done. It MOSTLY works for me.